skipping heartbeats with the boys downtown

My jiejie came back from China and she bought me delicious chocolate (what diet?)! Also food from Ling (ilovebambu) which she bought while she was also in China :-) I'm seriously so depressed here in Finland, I just wanna go back to Chengdu and go to Hong Kong. But I'm probably working the whole summer, also my boyfriend, and planning to move to our own apartment so we really don't have any time to visit China now for awhile :-(

Sun is shining almost every day now! Even thought here is still snow and everything else disgusting and cold but at least sun makes me feel better after long and dark winter.
In recent weeks I have been really really tired and very low energy. Every day. Almost the whole of last week and this week I've gone to bed every night at nine o'clock. I wake up every morning at 6:33am and I just feel so tired even thought I have been sleeping more than 9h..sometimes 10hours.
Stepmom told me to go for blood tests, she said I might just have low hemoglobin which is really normal for girls. And I just feel I need caffeine but I hate coffee and tea doesn't help me at all!! 

and stuff like that.